You're just like a dream
This kinda suck right now.

really bad actually.

i love my job most of the time, which is a great thing. it's about time i was happy with work.
there' some serious stuff going on in my life right now that i can't talk about....but i can tell you it's not good....at all. i just hope it works out.

the only good thing...

Her.

i don't know about her tho. i feel like a last resort. she's interested in someone else..."talking" to them most would say. but she's not sure what's going on with him, which makes me not sure what's going on with her. but when i'm with her...every thing's better. i haven't felt like that in a while.

she's supposed to call me when she gets done work tonight, and we maybe hanging out.
i really hope so. i kinda need it.



i miss fun.
i miss smiles
i miss laughing and meaning it.
i miss going to bed thinking of someone, and not somethings.
i miss waking up and being miserable cause i have to get up..not cause i woke up.
i miss playing/making music. it makes me feel alive.
i miss friends, and having them.
i miss when i didn't have to write lists of things that i miss.
i miss social interaction, and knowing how to do it.


hockey's good. off this week, but playoffs start next week..can't wait. i've been scoring alot of goals.
got my 1st hattrick in years. that made me smile.

i hope she makes me smile tonight.