when the stars come out i'm

The truth is that i've enver fallen so hard

2007-07-16T09:46:48Z

so the shockers lost our first playoff game..so good bye 1st place season and championship. so sad.

However, i made the decision to go against my better judgement and take a chance to go and hang out with the same girl from the last entry, and i'm so glad i did.
nothing happened. we just hung out..and had a great time together.

tomorrow is another story tho...and if she's allowed to come over..there will be a meeting of the lips.<3

The moment i get out, they keep pulling me back in.

2007-07-15T10:23:41Z

Ever been completely ready to give up on something, then something comes along and puts you right back in the game?

That's my life right now.
Girls. I can't find one to save my life. Basically a weekend spent watching ones i have interest in being interested in someone else...to say the least. Hope was lost. I decided the time to throw in the towel was now.

But as if by some miracle, someone i haven't seen in a long time came out of nowhere. I had always felt for this girl, but never mentioned it due to certain circumstances. but that's not an issue no longer, so mentioned it has been.

Mixed feelings

To put it simply is what i have. The kind that you're glad for the reason, but not for the fact that you're up all night thinking about it. i'm more excited than i've been since...well i don't know. but heartbroken is where i see this going...maybe more like i fear it going. I always expect the worst, but hope for the best. Not being sure if she feels the same for me isn't helping.
but to sum up my feelings into one word...

Giddy<3

When I see you, I still hear trumpets

2007-07-03T03:44:04Z

wow

=)

<3

best hour of my life.

lostinyourleyes @ 2007-07-02T01:34:00

2007-07-02T05:35:47Z

nevermind

she didn't call.
i called her.
shew was too tired to hang out.
=(

You're just like a dream

2007-07-01T21:39:30Z

This kinda suck right now.

really bad actually.

i love my job most of the time, which is a great thing. it's about time i was happy with work.
there' some serious stuff going on in my life right now that i can't talk about....but i can tell you it's not good....at all. i just hope it works out.

the only good thing...

Her.

i don't know about her tho. i feel like a last resort. she's interested in someone else..."talking" to them most would say. but she's not sure what's going on with him, which makes me not sure what's going on with her. but when i'm with her...every thing's better. i haven't felt like that in a while.

she's supposed to call me when she gets done work tonight, and we maybe hanging out.
i really hope so. i kinda need it.

i miss fun.
i miss smiles
i miss laughing and meaning it.
i miss going to bed thinking of someone, and not somethings.
i miss waking up and being miserable cause i have to get up..not cause i woke up.
i miss playing/making music. it makes me feel alive.
i miss friends, and having them.
i miss when i didn't have to write lists of things that i miss.
i miss social interaction, and knowing how to do it.

hockey's good. off this week, but playoffs start next week..can't wait. i've been scoring alot of goals.
got my 1st hattrick in years. that made me smile.

i hope she makes me smile tonight.

lostinyourleyes @ 2005-10-27T13:17:00

2005-10-27T17:30:09Z

well hello there noone, cause appearently that's who reads my journal since nobody leaves any comments. start leaving some to any1 who reads this. so yea, i got a new car. 1995 nissan maxima...yea..that's right...i fucking love it, although i miss the camaro. :( but yea. work sucks, i hate it. school is ok, i just hate wakign up for it and doing the work. other than that life is ok...i guess..maybe not, but i can pretend...tomorrow me and some people from work...like half the staff are going to six flags for fright fest, should be a blast..i have no idea what i'm doing on halloween, so if any1 has anything to do, let me know....i preffer a party..but whatever..i'll take anything...I'M DESPERATE!!!...ok.. so yea..i'm so fucking bored..i'm waiting for class to start at 2. i have nothing to do...i'm just trying to waste time at this point. i'm not succeeding very well...so yea.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................yea...that's right...i'm lookign for a new band...one that is willing to work around my schedual...like not totally, not like i'm the center of the fuckign univers..but i work alot..and other than that i got to school all the time. so basically i can practice tues. after 4 and thurs. after 8....or in eh mornings any day after 9:30 and before 2. so if you know a band lookign fora bassist...or even an acoustic band which i would love to play acoustic guitar for a band....let me know...i really need to get into a GOOD band that isn't rediculous this time....i miss gracenote...alot actually, besides all the drama anyway, but we were gettign amazing..and the music was so good, and i actually enjoyed playing it, and even if i wasn't playing it, i would have loved listening to it..i wish dan would come back to jersey, and bob would stop being..whatever the fuck he is being or trtyign to be..cause i don't liek it and haven;'t liked it ever since he's started doing it..which is a long time, and steve would stop smoking pot so much cause the kid has such great potential and he's wasting it all away becoming a burnout, and i wish jakki could actually put the band infront of her friends and everythign else and could have fun beign in it and enjoy practicing and all that...and i wish i could not be so lazy and get more into it...cause we had alot of good times, and alot of fun, and aalot of fans as i'm finding out...so many people come up to me all over the place..alot here at ccc, saying, hey didn't you play bass for that band gracenote??? what happened to you guys, you were awesome!....i wish we could just regroup and be cool again..and oh yea..eagerly..i wish him an dholy could settle there shit..and jakki and him too..and he could not be so hot headed..alothough i loved that about him..but yea...i just wish we could al ldo it again...and do it better...that would be great...but i don't thin kthat will ever happen...:( ..so yea..i'm done...

leave comments.

wow

2005-09-01T20:58:17Z

so it's been forever and half since i last updated. alot has happened. me and ashley are no longer together. i work at wawa in bellmawr. come visit me. i am now a college student, who would have thought that would ever happen?!?!?! so yea. live is busy and misserable for me. hahaah. but i shall update more often. later for now, class is starting soon.

lostinyourleyes @ 2004-11-13T19:45:00

2004-11-14T00:46:42Z

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Physically, what stands out?

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

18. How long have you known me?

19. Describe me in one word.

20. What was your first impression?

22. What do you think my weakness is?

24. What makes me happy?

25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?

29. When's the last time you saw me?

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

33. Do you miss me?

34. Do you think i miss you?

35. will you put this on your journal so i can suvey you?

Note to all fuckers pranking cars...

2004-11-08T20:03:28Z

I hope you all know, that alls you people are doing is giving me a reason to wash my car...and that's about it. you're not pissing me off, you're not offend me. you're not scaring me. appearently Jakki got hit too, so i guess it's not a total direct hit on me. whatev.

I hope you're having fun. i really don't care. but i sware, if there's any perminant damage done to my car, or anything belong to me or my family, or my g/f or any1, i will hunt you all down and fucking murder you...and i won't be alone...

Have a Nice Day!

lostinyourleyes @ 2004-11-05T11:00:00

2004-11-05T16:26:51Z

11/20/2004 - Deptford Skate Zone
Deptford Ave. and Tacoma Blvd, Westville/Deptford, NJ 08093 - 7 or 8 pm.
Gracenote. & more bands TBA.

http://www.purevolume.com/gracenote
or
http://www.myspace.com/gracenote

more info coming soon.

green light catharsis

2004-10-14T05:21:43Z

i've been staring down these lines for miles
not heeding the numbers on the signs
pull my sleeves down over my hands
the window keeps finding its way further down
count to ten, but never passing one
kill time killing my lungs
following white lines to green lights
watch the markers shine
where does this end
when do we stop
how long will i clench my fist
this place has no answer
youre no professor
one word is all i need to spin the wheel
but silence echoes through your hollow shell
the lights get closer
why can't it be your arms i'mrunning to
and not this empty pavement

i used to be a good writer.....i also only wrote when my face was covered in tears...hmmm...

lostinyourleyes @ 2004-08-16T14:37:00

2004-08-16T19:49:40Z

a [ series 1 ]
Name: Chris Bangs
Birthday: 12-02-86
Birthplace: west jersey hospital??
Current Location: g-town Glendora
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: sagiterrious
Font: the one that lokks cool
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music: hardcore, emo, some metal, old shit, anything that is good by my standards
Cartoon: family guy, aqua teen hunger force, sealab 2021
Color: baby blue nukka
Car: c-maro, 67 shelby gt 500, 70 chevelle ss
Slushy Flavor: blue raspberry
Magazine: fuck reading.
TV Show: aqua teen to the max
Song at the Moment: underOATH - down,set,go
Language: english
Spice Girl: the one that was in porn..
Food & Beverage: China man food & Dr. Pepper
Subject in School: american history.........X
Weekend Activity: drinking miller light at jessi's...
Frozen Yogurt: fuck that
Roller Coaster: all of them!
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase: i dunno
First thing you thought when you woke up: fuck, why am i awake
Last image/thought you go to sleep with: whatever is on my mind at that moment.
First feature you notice of opposite sex: eyes, smile
Best name for a Butler: thompson
Wussiest Sport: anything otehr than hockey..and football...E..A...G..L..E..S!!!
Your best feature: what ever tickles ur fancy
Your greatest fear: spiders...??
Your greatest accomplishment: beating ryan gibbons in beer bong!
Your most missed memory: cara...i guess..i dunno...
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke: Dr. Pepper
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds..
Single or Group Dates: single for like..heart to heart monments and cuddling, group for fun times..
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers: nuggets
Dogs or Cats: dogs
Rugrats or Doug: Quail man
Single or Taken: single
Monica or Brandy: i'll just kill them both
Tupac or Jay-Z: tupac
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes: fuck country
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
One pillow or Two: due
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa: chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee: coffee
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday: yeah
Have a crush: umm...not really...i have crushes if u want to count them as that..
Think you've been in love: i guess u can say that..
Want to go to college: no
Like high school: i hate school period, i just liek seeing the people in school..
Want to get married: yes
Type correctly: fuck no
Believe in yourself: nope
Have any tattoos? Where: no
Have any piercings? Where: no
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're a health freak: no
Get along with your parents: sometimes
Like thunderstorms: only when i'm not driving..
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be married: late 20's..probubly aroudn 30ish..
Number and names of children: 2..maybe 3...
Where will you be at age 20: here...probubly..
Dream wedding: the kind where u get married?
How do you want to die: breakign the sound barrior
Dream job: pro hockey, pro driver, porn star lol
Country you'd like to visit: italy
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color: green
Best hair color: brown
Short or long hair: short..but not guy short..
Best height: 5'3"ish
Best weight: 117....or somethign aroudn there
Best clothes: scene is cute
Best first date location: the end of the world..
Best first kiss location: the end of the world lol
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal: never..
Rings before you answer the phone: whenever i realize it ringing.
What's on your mousepad: comcast@home
How many houses you've lived in: 2
How many schools you've gone to: 3
Bedroom carpet color: tanish..?
Shave your head for $5,000?: pay up mother fucker!
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people: a truck load of Dr. Pepper.......spiked with rum, a Truck load of marboro menthol lights and zippo fluid, and lost of china man food
Best time of your life so far: probubly any of the many b

it's true i'm just aroudn to see where this thing goes...

2004-08-16T05:20:15Z

well tonight was interesting...
me and jerry were at his house all day, and then bob imed me and told me he quit gracenote. and he wanted his hsit but wouldn't help get the other shit inside, so i said he couldn't get it unless he did, cuz my mom was riding my cock about gettign every1 over to help. so his stuff is in my mom's truck. everything else is inside tho. cuz me and jerry ran here and got it all out.

then denise caleld and said every1 weaas at teh park. so me and jerry go to 711 to get money ,adn then go to mcdonald, and denise calls again and says they got kicked out and are going to audubon rec. center. so we're on our way, and we see jessi driving at a light, and he says go outfront of k-mart. so we go, and matt gets out of work. so we all go to the rec. center. and they're not there..suprise suprise. and they don't answer they're phones (cenise and erica) what a shocker! so we all drove back to the otehr park. and HEY! THERE THEY ARE! so we sit there and listen to jessi's music and eat our food, and talk to the kids. and then matt and jessi go back to matts, then me and jerry go ther. chill, go to matt's g-moms, the nback to his house. talk for a bit, then i take jeryr home.

then i wsz on my way home, and i saw my little buddy walking down the street. i stopped and talked to her. and before i knew i it was almost one, so i drove her home real quick, then flew my ass home. walk in, and my mom's alseep. and now here i am. tired as fuck. pretty ok night if u ask me.

Gracenote is probubly over...
well there goes that...

see you wednesday dollface...

word...

lostinyourleyes @ 2004-08-11T01:27:00

2004-08-11T05:22:27Z

R.I.P.
RICK JAMES,

...BITCH.

well, you know what they say...

cocaine is a helluva drug.

lostinyourleyes @ 2004-08-08T18:08:00

2004-08-08T22:03:31Z

THE 2004 ELECTION!

2004-07-26T06:40:01Z

WHO LOVES YOU MORE?

Inuadible?

Gracenote?

Vote now before it's too late!
(insert fine print here stating:all votes are to be posted via comments. click the link located at the bottom left corner of this enrty.)

WE love you!

p.s. - vote out bush in '04!

CAMPING MOTHER FUCKERS!!!

2004-07-11T23:04:41Z

ANY1 WANT TO GO CAMPING...LET ME KNOW!
WE GOING FRI-SUNDAY MORNING SOMETIMES SOON DEPENDING ON HOW MANY PEOPLE WE CAN GET TO GO...NOT GONNA COST U MUCH AT ALL..PROBUBLY 10 BUCKS OR LESS DEPENDING ON AMOUNT OF PEOPLE....JUST LET ME KNOW MOTHER FUCKERS..

every1 fucking go or i'll murder ur family....pets.

2004-06-04T03:31:40Z

FREE SHOW!!!!
Friday June 4th @ Dan’s house in hickville U.S.A.
709 Mullica Hill Rd Mullica Hill N.J. 08062 (just off 55)
For directions call: 1-609-970-6946 ask for chris
Grace note
the Annexation of Puerto Rico
Middle Class Disaster
Inaudible
Simetta
Doors open at 7 pm

lost in forever and i just want a chance to love you

2004-05-14T19:39:53Z

the last couple have weeks have been very eventful, shore, shows, hookas, cds, songs, food, people, driving....lots of driving(sigh), loves, sex, tattoos, piercings, booz, drugs....alot of things....

Mel is possibly the most adorable person in the world. she's awsome. she likes waits for me in the hallways sumtimes now, it makes me smile :) if only....-sigh-...

o well...i need to get my working papers signed so i can make some money...

anybody puttign on a show sumtime soon, and needs another band, please let me know. gracenote, the most hardcore christian rock band ever, is available for order...

word...

shit....

2004-04-20T21:20:50Z

stolen from mel...i hate shit like this..but people asked her some good questions, and she gave good answers...so i gave in...

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then, i want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends(including myself) to ask you anything.

Shows i'm tryign to go to/am going to next month...

2004-03-20T21:09:58Z

If any1 would like to come with me to any of these shows..except coheed czu it's sold out....please let me know(comment)..

EVERY TIME I DIE -
AS I LAY DYING Thu. 4/1
with The Black Dahlia Murder - Scarlet

Doors @ 7:00pm
$12.00

the solid state tour 2004 Thu. 4/8
featuring: NORMA JEAN - underoath - BELOVED - Dead Poetic - Haste the Day

Doors @ 6:00pm
$13.00

AKEXISONFIRE Tues. 4/13
@ Theater of Living Arts in Philadelphia, PA
Avenged Sevenfold / My Chemical Romance / Nora

COHEED & CAMBRIA Wed. 4/14
with Rainer Maria - FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND - Brazil

Doors @ 7:00pm
SOLD OUT

Allister
Fri. 4/23
with Punchline - HIDDEN IN PLAIN VIEW

Doors @ 7:00pm
$12.00

RUFIO Mon. 4/26
with SENSES FAIL - Autopliot Off - Don't Look Down

Doors @ 7:00pm
$12.00 adv
$14.00

you wanna buy a duck?

2004-03-18T04:10:38Z

Would any young Jr. lady(or man) like to take Mr. Jerome(jerry) Smith to the Jr. Prom? the young, strapping, handsome lobster would like to attend the event, but doesn't qualify, for he is a senior. So therefore, he needs junior to take him to it. Please, someone, anyone, respond. Take this poor child to prom.

word

with friends like you who needs subtext

2004-03-14T20:26:35Z

well.....last night, was LoBsTeR fEsT 3.5(tree fitty)..although it didn't feell like it......cori was there, and that's why.....just poopy stuff....don't want ot get into it.....
night kidna sucked...
should have went to Lee's and got pissy like i wanted to, but shit happens...now i'm pissed off at one of my best friends, but no matter what she tries to say, i have teh right to be...and i should be....

but whatever....i'm not special.....

don't worry about me, i'm not worth your time...

there's something stuck in the back of my throat, it's the words i hate you...

2004-03-03T01:22:00Z

o man.....tiredness....lots of practicing.....show friday.....every1 go!....
well...jr. prom here i come.....my date (equals) rapponess..
sophmore sweethearts all over again ;)....
hopefully this one will be better...since it's the prom and all...i'm sure we'll havea lovely time....and i get to drive:)
awsomeness....i can't wait..
so yea......hopefulyl cori comes to practice tomorrow..that would be kew.and rappo too....that would be awsome....tomorrow isn't gonna be a hadf practice..cuz we're all tired...but we're gona be awsome at the show..so u all better come!..if u want a flyer..ask me and i'll give u one....so yea...
i'm off..nothing else to say.....word

when all else fails, use ur wizord powers and turn people into squirels

2004-02-24T01:34:59Z

well....another lovely day of talking ot erica..good stuff..i love when we talk ....like good conversations..they make me feel all wamr inside..and happy..and hopefull...
i love her....i think i really do..

but anywho..i get to hang out with ehr a a little bit after school before i come home to hopefully have practice..
show march 5th....5 bucks..bellmawr little league hall.....be there...or i'll kill you..we're on 1st...so get there early and watch us make asses out of ourself, and me show people what terribel drummign is....word...

me and cor i are drifting a little still..it seems anywas..and i hate it..i hate it o so much....cori is my...cori...i love my cori....we're gonna be chris and cori forever...-clear-....
haha...i just hope thigns get better for her so she can be the fun time cori i used to know and love(i still love her now), and i hope we're all better...soon....

i'm tired..and feel like poop...and need a cig...so yea...later kids...